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["I'm sorry you had to go through that." Armin feels sick. No one should be feeling sympathy for him in regard to what his power can do. As always, Marco is far too kind. If he'd survived all those years ago, his heart wouldn't have.]

Of course. I don't blame you.

I'm sorry, Marco.

[He is so, so fucking sorry.]

[sunspotted]

[ The more Marco learns, the more it becomes clear he would have lost either his heart or his life anyways, eventually. How could he have killed Bertholdt, or been okay with it? In the same breath, how could he have accepted losing Armin?

Would he have become numb to the death eventually? Or would it have shattered him, instead? He sighs to himself. ]

If you're thinking I'm mad, I'm not - well, not in the way one might expect. I'm just realizing you were right: our world is more cruel than I thought I understood to begin with.

You don't need to apologize to me though, Armin. I am here, if you ever need to talk about it.

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It's difficult for me to accept that, Marco.

It's very difficult.

[sunspotted]

I said you don't need to apologize to me.

[ There is, of course, plenty for Armin to apologize or want to for - and Marco isn't so kind hearted as to not remind him of that. ]

But I am willing to listen, even if I can't absolve you.

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[Oof. Whatever Armin might have talked about, that shuts it right down.]

I don’t expect to be absolved, and I wouldn’t want that.

It’s alright. We don’t need to talk about it. I’d rather not.

[sunspotted]

Okay. If you ever change your mind, I am here.

[ He won't press it, though. He knows that's not exactly something he can force, and he knows that Armin has very different life experiences to Marco now.

Marco is still just a young man - a teenager, really. What Armin, Eren and the others have gone through is something he never will. ]

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Thanks, Marco.

[That's about all he has left to say. Maybe he owes it to Marco to not be so withholding, but...he just doesn't have that in him right now. Maybe he never will.]